Hengameh’s Weblog

What will happen tomorrow? Are you sure about 1 hour later?

Farzad didn’t know what would happen that day. The night before that damn day he ate his dinner with all of us. We spoke and laughed on every sentence.

We tried to imagine his future with 2 kids around him and would play with them, we imagined his future wife and made fun of his comedy future life and we laughed. He was laughing and started to help us to imagine that life funnier.

Now, he is in coma. He had a bad accident when he was riding in one of those damn roads.

Since 13^th February he hasn’t talked to us because he has decided just to hearing for a while. He started to be silent.

Last week one of his friends sent his family- mother, father and sisters – to a place to pray and be calm and it was the last chance for everyone to see him closely and speak to him beside his bed.

I am sure about that while people are breathing and their heart is beating they can feel even they don’t respond you. I believe that their soul can hear you and your sentences will be in their mind and heart forever.

I don’t have knowledge about soul, body, mind and coma; because of this I am disabling to describe my beliefs on scientific bases. But it’s my idea that I can’t throw it away of my mind. This is my opinion and thought.

I was beside his bed last Saturday. I talked to him and he was hearing me.

I had decided to be strong, much stronger than the other days in my life. I had decided to be positive and not cry or see him as an unconscious friend. I touched his hand. He was warmer than me. I felt that how I had missed him. The tears were in my eyes and I remembered that I promised myself to be a strong girl. I started to talk:

Fa, fa, Farzad it’s me Hengameh, your friend. What the hell are you doing here? Are you kidding us? All of us are waited to hear you. Wake up boy; we have been waited for a long time. I have much news for you. How you can be here and not know that important and interesting news. I started to tell him all news about his family, friends, doctors, nurses, his apartment even his favorite soccer team.

I was there. His hand was in my hand and I was talking to him. I told him some jokes about events in those days. Between every sentence I said him I know you can hear me, I know you will open your eyes soon.

It was amazing. I was full of energy although I had a bad day at my job but I was full of hope and positive energy.

I was talking when the nurse told me that the time is over, I told him a good bye like other normal days and touched his face and told him, Farzad, handsome friend, wake up soon. We are sure about that, proof that you can do it easily.

I was sure about that. It wasn’t just a sentence. I can hardly wait to see him like those nice days before.

Don’t forget that you have some friends too; they need you to hear them and hear you. Don’t hesitate to call them and meet them. Don’t forget you don’t know what will happen tomorrow.